honestly...i'd rather you had stayed, unlike the other half of me you would have kept your distance, not treat me like a child after leaving me to grow up on my own.
you werent perfect in any way...quite the opposite but i loved you.
i'd rather have gone with you, before i realised that i cant live with you
before i realised i cant mke you proud.
so now am thinking...what do i do? be me...let it be...just relax and not have a care? retract to when i was a child and was taken care of? i dont know what thats like. ive never been there...
i know it might sound senile but could you pick me...i'll meet you half way too.
i dont know, i guess i just want to be able to love you.
if im not being loved i should be allowed to love someone...and who is more worth it than you?
